What’s life, but a living hell? Even before all this zombie BS started…. I was always so mad, always so stressed…. Never allowed to think out side the box…. I had my moments of happiness and I changed a lot of my bad ways but for what? Do I could be rewarded with all of this??? Sheila was my inspiration she had been through so much and still stayed strong…. Her wrists were covered with scars from her teen years…. She told me once that she could never find anything to want to make her stop until she met me… I was some kinda “cure” and she was mine…. I wasn’t angry with her around, I wasn’t sad, even when she moved away to go finished school, I knew we’d be together and now it was all for nothing….
In the past few months I’ve lost my family, lost my friends, lost my life, and had to kill innocent people…..
Never really thought of these things as people until yesterday…. I saw it as some incurable disease…. But I still killed her….. I killed the love of my life…. I killed my hope…..
Right now I’m sitting here, thinking what’s the point……
Some of my orientation helpers :) met som awesome people tonight including @gavbav @hoot10 @briesteenageyears @astubbs17 @suuhlest got to talk some ministry with most & tattoo appreciation :)
#penguin #funny #ucforientation #ucf
In the under the see making fish with an ocean scene lol #ucforientation #ucf
Entry 10: included is a sketch I did that day of a building… It was all chained up… A way to keep people safe, I guess it’s good I use to draw as a kid haha, maybe ill be able to find a camera to document my journey
Waiting for the sunrise I sat there with Skye wrapped around my arm, you see it had gotten very cold last night, so Matt & Whitney cuddled up to keep warm and Skye curled up next to me…. It was very cold and we kept each other warm so I didn’t mind…
It was early and we were all awake I grabbed the guitar, I had taken from the Hard Rock, and I started to play a song I learned a while back, All I Want by A Day To Remember…
I just played and sang
“All I want is a place to call my own
Mend the hearts of everyone who feels alone, wooooah you know
Keep your hopes up high, and your head down low”
Skye kept on getting closer to me, she told me she hasn’t heard that song in a while and loves it….
I didn’t really respond, more of a nod in agreement…. I stood up and said “we need to go look for any signs of those carriers or military”
We all geared up and headed out …. Whole wandering the streets We came across a lot of stores and alley ways all locked up. Either to keep something out… Maybe keep something in, like this one Store with a sign just saying “13” was all locked up and on the metal shutter/ garage door looking gate it was written in black paint “DONT OPEN ZOMBIES INSIDE…”
It was starting to get darker out and I had all but given up hope when I saw her… Sheila! I ran and yelled to her “Sheila!!!! Sheila!!!!” Just screaming her name as loud as I could! Skye, Matt, and Whitney all followed me to see what I was all excited about but then….. I was less than a few feet from her…. And I realized…… She was…. She is……. She had turned into one of those things, my heart sank she ran at me I couldn’t believe it , I raised my gun and pleaded for her to stop, and started to yell “STOP SHEILA” but she persisted and got faster I closed my eyes pulled the trigger and emptied a full clip of the assault rifle, Sheila’s body dropped, and hit the ground with force, I couldn’t hear anything at that point I was so shocked, and so much anxiety cane over me…. I dropped to my knees and began to cry……